Sunday, September 26, 2010
My dad had a secret sister who plunged to her willful demise from a NYC subway platform back in the 60's. Secret in the sense that no one spoke of her, and I didn't even know she existed until recently. This little nugget of family history has infected my mind like an unrelenting virus. I've probed my mum for information, but my dad's mum on the subject. He's not a talker to begin with and in our culture, we suppress a lot of things and don't talk about things that're embarrassing or shameful.
I just want to know everything about it. Who was there? What was she wearing? What was she like? What did she do right before that moment? How did my dad find out? How old was she? How old was he? What made her do it? Did she have any friends? What was her favorite color? Movie?
How utterly dramatic and tragic and traumatizing for all.